Things I Didn’t Expect

18 / 04 / 2013

When Monica Dux found herself pregnant with her first child, she was dismayed to find it was an adventure in physical discomfort, unachievable ideals, kooky classes and meddling experts. In her new book Things I Didn’t Expect, Monica explores the aspects of baby-making that we all want to talk about, but which are too embarrassing, unsettling or downright confronting. With Monica’s permission, we include this excerpt for Sheilas readers (find the rest of the book and a 10% discount here!)

Some women experience a greatly improved state of health during pregnancy, both bodily and mentally. They feel uncommonly active, strong, gay and happy. This is, however, not common. It is much more usual for the mother to be subject to loss of appetite, nausea, and to other disturbances of the stomach and other internal organs; to be annoyed by low spirits, fancies, and ‘longings’; to be nervous and irritable; and sometimes to be seriously disordered in mind for the time being.

– Martin Luther Holbrook, Parturition Without Pain: A code of directions for escaping from the primal curse, 1871

My ancestors had all sorts of problems, but propagating the species was not one of them. Out of the seven great-great-grand vaginas that I know about came eighty-two babies. That’s 11.7 babies per vag. And this figure doesn’t even include their collective miscarriages and stillbirths, which are sure to have numbered in the double figures.

Of course this sort of rapacious baby-making wasn’t so unusual at the time. That’s what simple country folk did in the late nineteenth and early twentieth centuries. But even by the impressive breeding standards of the age, I have one ancestor who stands alone. When we were kids, my brother Matthew and I were told she was our Great Aunt Hilda, although to us she was just a faded photograph in the back of the family album. Matt and I took morbid delight in the older black-and-white pictures that we found there, teasing each other that we resembled those long-dead, sepia-toned relatives. Hilda was easily the scariest. She wasn’t far into her sixties when the photo was taken, yet already her face was horribly pinched, her back profoundly curved and her hair had fallen out in clumps, joining the teeth that had long since departed, leaving her with a sunken, gummy grin, like a scary, wrinkled Muppet.

My brother used to delight in showing this photo to any boyfriends I was silly enough to bring home. ‘Lovely, isn’t she?’ he’d ask them. ‘That’s what Monica’s going to look like one day.’ It always got a slightly hysterical laugh from my dates, as well as ensuring that they’d never look at me in quite the same way again. Many years later I fell in love with a good man—one my brother actually liked—and together we decided to continue the great Dux tradition and have some babies. And as my first pregnancy proceeded, I often thought of poor old Hilda. But I wasn’t laughing at her anymore. Instead of wondering how the poor thing ended up looking so bad, I started marvelling that she’d even survived. You see, Hilda had given birth to eighteen children by the time that infamous photo was taken, while even a few months of pregnancy had made me feel like her scary Muppet cousin.

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So that’s what this book is about: the bizarre, weird, messy, creepy stuff that happens to you when you get pregnant, give birth and become a mother. It’s about the stuff that’s changed over the last 200 years, and the stuff that hasn’t. There’s also quite a bit in here about my vagina, but please don’t let that put you off. My husband assures me that it’s still very nice.